i'm not sure how this happened with us. We were just two people in love, we ARE just two people in love but our relationship is taking a turn in a completely different direction and i LIKE it hehe...
It all started when my Fiancee and i moved in together. i started expressing my need/desire to be spanked, bitten, have my hair pulled, i wanted him to take control of me. At first i thought that He would back off at a million miles an hour, He is very gentle, loving and passive in most cases, how wrong i was!
i'm not saying that after telling him my desires he unleashed his inner Dom and started to turn me into his obedient little submissive (haha if only!) but over the last few months something has changed within him. He started to enjoy the darker facets of his being, He dug deep and really developed an enjoyment for spanking me, telling me i was His dirty little fuck toy, it's really been amazing.
Then one night De asked me to call Him Daddy and of course being a good girl i did, what He didn't realise is the profound effect it had on him sexually and emotionally!
Life goes on, as life does from time to time and the Daddy thing was all but forgotten about for a while there as a sexual thing anyway, we have a 3 year old so He often gets Daddy regardless. but then He went to the U.K on a holiday with his dad and i guess we have had time to really think about what we want sexually, what really does it for us.
i took the opportunity to tell Him that as His future wife i really was ready to be His fully. i want him to own me and that i would really like to step up our explorations into the depths of our fantasies further. And so He asked if i wanted to be Daddy's little girl, just like that.
Don't get me wrong. i'm fairly certain neither of us will be joining the 24/7 BDSM community any time soon, it isn't something i'm going to parade around in front of my son but i do believe i have awoken something in my Partner. He has begun to embrace this side of Himself where he enjoys total power and i am loving every minute of it. He even wants to collar me which i think is a huge honour.
Anyways sorry for my ramblings, i probably make no sense and am as boring as bat shit but i don't care because it is my blog :P ner ner ner
****too all those who are living in a 24/7 D/s relationship, i just wanted to say i envy you and perhaps with time and reading and experience my Partner and i might be half as fulfilled as you****
Saturday, October 24, 2009
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